Confusedist.

Was going through some God stuff. And the tingle happened, that I SO hate when it happens in the head of mine - for, it often ends up with a confused me.

This time: What am I? A theist , or Atheist?

I am both. Rather, I am neither of them. Now, that conclusion in itself is confusing. But perfectly equally applicable.

Now this is too vast to be discussed and concluded upon. If the purists cant fight it out, neither can I.

But I know this. I dont want to believe that there is a God who sits somewhere up in the sky - no, thats not my idea of God. I do have framed pictures of idols and stuff at my room. But I dont know if I am really going to believe that there is Shiva or Vishnu up there, on snow covered mountains and stuff like that. It is a blind neglect of rationality.

Agreed there are supernatural stuff on earth that science cant explain. I am not going to sit here waiting for science to come with a solution. Maybe some power does exist. What I want to believe is that there is yet-unexplained energy in this world. Explain a simple phenomenon such as telepathy, across continents. Explain David Blaine. Scary enough to make you believe that atleast Satan exists. Lol.

I cant drive any point home now. I am trained into something since my childhood which my rationality says isnt true. Convention says "dont lose dinner coz mom's unhappy with you". I am not religious, I am not pious, I wont die for religion. Infact I will not even pay for it. I have my set of rules that I think is religion, and that, I shall follow.

Anyways, mom - if you've come so far down this post that you are reading this, I'll be hungry at 8. And dont you deny your kid food when I come home.

Well, what prevails in this society, put in such a wonderfully funny way:
"Give a man a fish, and you'll feed him for a day; give him a religion, and he'll starve to death while praying for a fish." -- Author Unknown

Adios.